Tuesday, September 28, 2010

Being Together

T and I got a precious and rare day off together yesterday.  We had to go see the doctor for my follow up appointment.  Everything looks good there, no D & C.  We have been given the go ahead to start trying again when my period starts.  I am very scared and very nervous but we want to try.  We have lost our innocence and illusions of safety but we still have hope.

We decided to take a family day after the appointment.  I haven't been out of the house except to go to work in over a week.  We decided that since we were going to be down in Cincinnati, we would go to Hueston Woods State Park.  It's actually north of Cincy in my old stomping grounds,  Oxford OH - home to Miami University.  I am lucky enough to be a Miami alum -- Class of 1997.  We stopped in Oxford to pick up some lunch and took it with us to the park.  It was a fantastically typical Fall day to be in the woods.  Chilly and overcast with a little bit of dampness.  It was just what we needed.  We got to walk in the woods and along the beach area, laugh at B's antics and discoveries, and hold hands.  It was very healing for the soul.  I felt closer to T than I have since this whole tragedy started.  It was nice to feel "normal" again.

                                             My precious B, beach side

                                                     In the woods

When we got home, B and I made cookies together.  That's something we haven't done since Christmas.  Of course, with a almost 4 year old little girl helping, the kitchen was a disaster.  But it was fun and filled in some of the empty places I have been feeling in my heart.  We enjoyed a very Fall supper, in my humble opinion, of chili and corn muffins.  Very warm and filling after a day of tromping through the woods.  All and all, it was a great day of being together and reconnecting as a family.  I felt happy for the first time in awhile.


  1. Beautiful, I'm glad to read that you had a day like this with T and B (she is a real beauty by the way).

  2. Yes, it can be scary to try again after a dream has been shattered ... keep clinging to hope ...there are happy endings.