I hate Mondays. Today sucked. I was doing OK until I got a call from my mom and it went downhill from there. Now don't get me wrong, I love my mom dearly but sometimes we don't communicate well. She called at a bad time and I went ahead and tried to talk to her even though I knew it was a bad time, but I hadn't talked with her for awhile so...Any way, she was actually trying to tell me that she approved of my blog and all but, following an argument this past weekend with T about our infertility issues, I was very sensitive. I won't got into details, but, sometimes you just need support and not someone to try and "fix" things or give you platitudes. Sometimes I just need someone to vent to, cry on their shoulder, just listen and hear me, not tell me what I need to do or that it will all work out or to stop worrying so much.
T is much more laid back than I am (thank God otherwise our household would be completely manic) and he seems to be taking this in stride. Sometimes he is so easy going that I wonder if he is really affected or all that worried. I take the proactive, what are all the possibilities angle and he takes the wait and see, don't borrow trouble angle. They don't always mesh as we found out this past weekend. And this waiting is KILLING me. I want to get the Challenge test done so we know where we go from here but I still haven't gotten my period. I will have to call the RE tomorrow which probably means more blood work and Provera. That means it won't be until sometime next month before we can schedule the test. UUURRGGG!!
On the good side of things, I have decided to go on the low GI diet (glycemic index). I have heard good things about this diet and am hopeful it will help with the insulin resistance AND weight loss. Poor T is not so excited but he is a trooper. He doesn't really get much of a choice since I do most of the grocery shopping :). I have been keeping up with getting more exercise - I have been doing yoga/pilates, we went to the zoo on Saturday and walked around for hours, and we went bowling yesterday. Not high impact exercise but still exercise and I will build on it.
I am just kind of blue today. Its the waiting and not knowing. Also, sometimes I feel like I am the only one who is taking this situation that seriously. I am trying to be proactive and do things to try and help with the PCOS like the GI diet, exercise, cutting my sugar intake plus researching infertility, IVF, IUI and PCOS. I found a nice board - Soulcysters.com - on PCOS with the help of a friend. It has a lot of good info. I just want a plan of action and hate being in this holding pattern. It is driving me absolutely crazy. I know there is nothing I can do right now but I really dislike being told that and being told to just be patient. So I am having a blue Monday and a crappy outlook right now. It will pass, I hope :). I think T hopes it will pass, too. Hopefully having a crappy start to the week won't color the rest of the week. Mondays suck.